March 1st, 2012 at 6:30PM

I purged it all.

I didn’t even hesitate. Only in my mind. If I have the option to purge everything, I always take it. Always. I don’t fight it, I don’t debate it. I know that when I want to get better, I’ll start fighting it. But for now it’s all I have.

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January 17th, 2012 at 5:42PM

ended a binge by purging last night at about 7 pm. didn’t eat anything until an hour ago, which was an ice cream sandwich, 4 packets of entenmann’s brownie bites, and a vanilla caramel sundae. purged. 

i feel like shit, obviously, and i’m trying not to beat myself up too much over that binge. that binge shouldn’t have happened, though, and that’s what’s killing me.

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November 13th, 2011 at 1:29AM

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK

feeling the absolute worst feeling in the world right now. going to purge until i feel like my guts themselves are going to come up.

can’t wait until it’s over (for a day or two) and look back at this post, remembering how i feel now.

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October 7th, 2011 at 12:58AM

time to purge. with a headache. fuck my damn eating disorder.

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