January 2012
109 posts
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someone please do me a huge favor?
tell me i’m all right.
i don’t know if i am.
i ate two slices of banana bread last night, a few pieces of frozen cookie dough (i work at an ice cream parlor), and a Monster energy drink (the zero sugar, zero calorie one).
my stomach feels full (or is that just in my head…?) and it’s hard for me to stand it.
please tell me that i don’t have to feel guilty about...
there’s no way I can tell who, but it weirds me out that at least one person from my current town visits my site once in a while.
work hard
work your fucking ass off. don’t let food control you, you control food.
today, I will not use symptoms.
I can't I just be okay?
Why am I like this? Why do I do all of these things to myself?
Anonymous asked: i really want too loose quite a lot of weight, can you give me any tips or anything too keep me going cus i always seem to give up and it really annoys me after
WHEN WILL IT END?
Ever?
conjurecakes asked: Oh man you remind me so much of myself, in a god, yet scary way. I hope you find some sort of harmony within yourself </3 Love ~~~
Anonymous asked: From Meth(1) to Cleaned every month(10), what would you rate your teeth? I mean does your boyfriend not care or?
I'm doing fucking nothing with my life.
Not in college, not even thinking about it.
Working two jobs, barely saving any-fucking-thing.
Anonymous asked: Why 'fortunately' and why 'unfortunately'? Care to explain?
Anonymous asked: What happened? Are you single again?
I always push everyone away.
And they always leave.
39879) There aren't words to describe how much I...
You spend 99% of your time trying to be happy and with the other 1%, you’re thinking about why you’re not.
Time to Float: I want this so bad. →
timetofloat:
I want this so fucking bad, I get so upset when I binge on food, I just feel like killing myself, I just feel like a digusting, fat failure.
I can’t do anything right, the only thing I know now is dieting, the only thing I have to look forward to in life is being thin, the only thing I know is…
My suicidality never went away.
It was just hiding right below the surface.
Anonymous asked: I dont know if anyone asked you this yet but knowing that you purge alot and such, how are you able to maintain your teeth so they dont rot from all that purging? Do you have well maintain teeth? Cause I know with some individuals like yourself, they sometimes ruin their teeth with all the throwing up and such. Anyway, just curious.
With food inside me, I don't feel free. And don't...
I know I do.
Food holds me captive. I am its prisoner.
39469) Binging, or basically eating anything,...
Anonymous asked: Do you think your current boyfriend might be 'The One'?
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ended a binge by purging last night at about 7 pm. didn’t eat anything until an hour ago, which was an ice cream sandwich, 4 packets of entenmann’s brownie bites, and a vanilla caramel sundae. purged.
i feel like shit, obviously, and i’m trying not to beat myself up too much over that binge. that binge shouldn’t have happened, though, and that’s what’s...
Anonymous asked: Thank you for being so open about your experience. I cherish your answer deeply. So, how's your fight going? Do you feel any, as tiny as it might be, progress? x
for me, no information is too private on here, because i’m anonymous.
Anonymous asked: You mentioned that you were sexually abused when you were younger. How come you still feel aroused or even desire your boyfriend? Doesn't that horrible experience numb all of your sexual needs? And why does he even become 'violent'? (Sorry, if that's too private.) x
